What Do You Mean It Costs More To Educate Me Because Of My Ethnicity?

AKA How The Los Angeles Unified School District Taught Me I Was Inferior

It was around second grade. The teacher handed out a survey for the class to fill out. At the bottom it asked for our race. At the time I believed I was half white and half Mexican. I was really half Thai and half white but that is a story for another time. The form listed "Caucasian" as one choice and "Mexican" or "Hispanic" as another choice. I was both. What should I do? There was another choice, "Native American." I had never heard this term before but it seemed the perfect answer to my dilemma.  My child's mind reasoned that being born in America made me American AND native to the land so I check "Native American." Upon reviewing the surveys Miss Teacher asked the class who checked off "Native American." Silence. She went on to say that there were no Native American's in the class so someone filled it out incorrectly. I had been groomed, since I was a fetus, to be a perfect student and never give wrong answers so I spoke up to defend my answer.  Miss Teacher said, "Your last name is Sanchez. You are Mexican!" I defiantly replied, "I am half Mexican and Half white!" Miss Teacher explained, "The school gets more money for Mexicans so I am changing it to Mexican." My entire being, to my core, knew this was wrong and my child's mind did not know how or feel safe speaking up. I never could figure out why it cost more to educate me than it did to educate a fully white person. As wrong as I knew it to be, it was still the beginning of a long road of feeling less than. 

A Crash Course in Manifestation

You never know by what method your gifts will arrive. You can live in such a way that will guide these things but sometimes you go off track. This can lead to The Universe interpreting your thoughts and actions to mean you want your lessons the hard way.  March 20, 2016 was one of those days.

My husband and I were on our way to dinner. One moment the coast was clear and the next moment I plowed into a car that appeared out of nowhere. Seemingly. My Nissan Versa was totaled. Under my ownership for only a couple of years, I tried to love that car but just didn’t. The mileage wasn’t as good as I thought it would be and it had no get up and go! Love or no love I was devastated. Work beckoned and I lacked transportation. The husband was in the midst of a week off and offered me his car while we figured out what to do. Luckily, my insurance company was swift. That, combined with 2 witnesses, ensured that the case was decided 100% in my favor and a check for the car was in my hand very quickly. This is where the manifestations began to appear.

Manifestation #1: Once an avid Prius naysayer, I had come around to wanting one. Forty to forty five miles a day demand the mileage that can only be had by a hybrid. Alas, I was under the illusion that I could not afford a Prius. I had other priorities that did not include a higher monthly payment. The insurance check for the Versa allowed me to pay off the Versa AND make a good sized down payment on……a Prius! This car was found through a “chance encounter” (thanks Universe!) with a dude on Facebook that sells cars at the Toyota dealership two miles form my house. Destiny? Perhaps. Between the down payment and lower monthly fuel expense I broke even. Yes, Universe, I see, hear, and feel the message. It took smashing my car into another to realize I could have the car I wanted. It was always within reach. I had to be jolted back into that reality.

The months of April, May, June, July, August, and part of September were partly spent having many many many chiropractor visits and massages. Thank goodness for chiropractors and skilled massage therapists! Especially MINE. There was a lot of pain and discomfort that needed to be worked through. Luckily the husband wasn’t in as bad shape as I was. We finally settled the bodily injury part of the case last week. Checks were sent, received, and deposited.

Manifestation #2: A chunk of $$ set aside to cover a minor surgery early next year. A hernia in the husband to be exact. You gotta love a situation that results in your health care deductible being more than the cost of an actual surgery. (Thanks health care industry/corporate America run amok!)

Manifestation #3: A sizable payment on the credit card that means we can be credit card debt free by the end of the year.

On March 20th I didn’t think I could have the car I wanted for at least a couple of years. I didn’t see how we would be debt free by the end of the year. I wasn’t sure how we would manage hernia surgery. That evening all of that changed. It took a car crash and many months of pain and discomfort. I know better. Having strayed from what I knew, and what I advise others on, I literally needed a CRASH COURSE in manifestation! Universe, I get it. I am thankful. From here on out…I attract what I want with EASE and GRACE!